It’s been quite a while since I last got to play, and I think that’s starting to affect me. Seems my social life is starting to move almost completely to the Internet, and my ideas just keep floating, half-formed, in my head. That, Christmas, and other things get my moods down. And it feels like I can’t handle my life with the strength I’ve got. So I decided, now that I have the inspiration, to update here too. If nothing else, at least I will get some of my ideas to better shape.
Of course, among other things, those old ideas I’ve had for quite some time keep haunting me. And new ones just keep coming. So you might guess it’s kinda hard for me to keep up with them all in my head. At the moment, I have at least four five ideas for a game I want to keep, a couple more I want to play in, the few games I should be playing but the GMs haven’t gotten running again, ideas for items and characters to different games (once again, mainly Exalted) and even a missing for few of my favourite characters from past games.
And my personal life seems to be not much better, but I’ll not go into that any more.
Besides, I hate Christmas. Or rather, I hate all the fuss, advertising, music and, generally, stress accompanying and preceding it. It’s something that adds to my personal blues. And it seems getting earlier every year. A few more decades, and I guess we’ll be seeing Santa’s pictures on Midsummer’s eve… Please, just… Leave us be, alright? But alas, no one listens. Well, no one who could do something about it, at least. And I don’t even like half of the Cristmas foods around here… Sigh.
I really need to get back to roleplaying. At least that’d get me with real people, and get my mind off my troubles…
Well, I hope getting all this out of my system helps me a bit, too. And hopefully I get to scratching up some of those ideas fo mine here too, so you don’t have to wait for quite so long for the next post.
December 17, 2009 at 1:20 am |
I say that let the ideas come and go as they please. Some years ago I kept writing up all my ideas. I filled a couple of notebooks with them, but I’ve never used even one of them. They are like butterflies: enjoy them while you see them but don’t try to pin them down.
And when you are not gaming, just accept it. Focus on the stuff that’s present in your life right now. The gaming will resume at some point. You cannot make it happen by stressing about it.
Well, that sounded like I was some sort of expert. I’m not. Just another hobbyist trying to point out that the sky is clouded only momentarily.